There are times when you're not surprised by a piece of unwelcome news. You tell yourself this is something you could have predicted. Heck, maybe you actually did predict it. Out loud and repeatedly. Regardless, it still stings.
Here's the thing: Our heads and our hearts don't always communicate with each other about how they will react in these circumstances.
The head says, "Ah yes. I saw that coming."
The heart replies, "Wait! What?!?!"
I felt this today. A change I had been half waiting for appeared on my LinkedIn feed this morning. After a moment of satisfaction (the delicious "I told you so" kind), there followed the sting. A true sucker punch to my ego.
Knowing that this is a natural reaction is helpful, but useless in a way. I still need to process the feelings associated with this change and that takes time. There is no off switch or fast forward button when it comes to the little grief of a predicted unpleasantness.
Which is its own comfort. We may be able to see a certain future, but we're not all-knowing in the end. Just gloriously and messily human.
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